Standing in front of the mirror, I felt the tears welling to the edges of my eyes. That is when I watched in amazment as my green eyes began to to turn blue at the edges. It made me think, that usually I am a happy person, just lately I have been rough, and blue around the edges. So much has happened, and so much has changed. I know that I should not fight what is happening because there is nothing that I can do for it now. It is in the past, but it was everything that I held dearest to my...

I not been writing blogs on here in a long time. So much has happened, so much has changed. I got extremly happy for a long time, and then it all crashed again. BUt that is how life is. I lost Eddie, he became my best friend, we did everything together. He literally cried on my shoulder when his ex broke up with him. Then, I fell in love with him. It was wonderful, and daunting, and horrible in the end. He actually ended our friendship officially because of the fact that I loved him. He said, a...

So, I left this site a long time ago, and I was not planing on writing again. But why should I put away my love of writing because noone ever comments back? Or because what they have to say is never what I want to hear? I have decided to say fuck it, this is my article, this is my life. So now it is time to dive.................. but where do I land? My sister and my father have some serious issues between them, and I hate them. They both pull me in the middle, and I just need a break, bu...

I have been trying to make myself perfect for a long time. As some may know, my father performed inappropriate things on some people that were near and dear to me. These people were everything that I loved. Both were my best friends, and I loved each of them differently but the same. Yet, they were in some way more perfect for him in a sick and twisted way. I always want to be what they were. Not that I envy that happened to them, but I envy that my father liked them better in a sick and twis...

The embers glowed softly, and in their dim light, I gazed round the room and I cherished the sight. My wife was asleep, her head on my chest, My daughter beside me, angelic in rest. Outside the snow fell, a blanket of white, Transforming the yard to a winter delight. The sparkling lights in the tree I believe, Completed the magic that was Christmas Eve. My eyelids were heavy, my breathing was deep, Secure and surrounded by love I would sleep. In perfect contentment, or so it would s...

I was doing some research and I came across one of the most gruesome things that I have ever heard of. In Alaska they are allowing people to fly small helicopters around to chase down wolves and then shoot them at point blank range. I am not going to write alot, but I am going to copy and past the article and then the sit name. I am doind my part to sace them, and now it is yours. We are all that they have to save them, it is time that we took a stand to save these beautiful creatures. They n...

So here I am, I am finally back to a state where I can update my blog. I have had a lot of stuff going on lately. But this blog is going to be about other stuff. I realized that I fell in love for the first time. But my question is that can we actually love someone who does not love you in return. We were friends for a long time, but I never got over him. He was amazing. We always talked, but then he started hanging out with the wrong people, and he started doing stupid stuff. He stole my ...

I walked through the doors, nothing but making one person jealous in mind. I had on a floor length navy blue dress, with a lot of crynlon underneath. I had my hair bobbie pinned up, and curled in little ringlettes. I must say, I have never felt so beautiful in my life. I found a table at the back, and I watched as everyone was dancing pathetically. I watched the door. But then something amazing happened, my friends that I had missed so much came running around the table and I jumped up. Th...

I know that I promised for my next blog to be happier, but it is soooo hard for it to be happy! Everyone in my house asked me if I would move out, and move in with my dad. Which I do not want to move in with my dad, I am very uncomfortable when it is just me and him. But I guess that if it makes everyone else happy then it is the right thing to do? I dont know, I feel so betrayed. I told them that it was ok, and they said that they do not want me to feel bad or unwelcome, but it is sooo hard ...

I just looked back at almost all of my blogs, and they have all been depressing and poor me for a long time. I am looking for that turn on to happy lane, it is just hard to find with all the bad stuff in my life. I always look at the negative, I always have. I think it is time for a change. Everyone else has moved on to the next chapter in their lives, but I am still holding on to the old one. I am not ready to move on. But who can make time stand still? I have been given an offer to...

I talked to Eddie for thirty minutes yesterday, and I think that it helped me get over but yet now I like him more then ever. We talked and I finally got the nerve to tell him that I liked him, and do you know what he said, "Well, I already knew that! Some other people had told me" So then I felt like a complete idiot, and then he brought up the fact that I had asked him to prom. He said, "The thing is is that I have already been asked by someone about a month ago, and if you had asked me soon...

I never let anyone hurt me until I met you. I feel really funny when I talk to you, My heart flutters and my stomache turns inside out. What should I do? Should I put myself out there more and ask you, Or should I just keep my mouth shut and pull away. Rejection is not exactly me favorite thing, But what if I just let you pass and you are the love of my life. I have seen your dates, Barbie and Ken you look like So I know that you would not date me. Should I lose ...

My older sister, August, went on a blind date today. Although me and her have not been getting along lately, we have still been telling each other things. She called the house and said, " Ginnie?" I said no and then she asked who had the baby. I told her that I did, and then she asked for our little sister Virginia. She told Virginia that she had a blind date, and that is cool, but less then fice minutes later when she walked in she just walked down to my little sister's room and talked to he...

I am staying on Georgia for the weekend, and I have gotten reaquanted with someone I knew when I was younger. He was annoying and childish last time, and now he is hoooot and he is a pretty nice guy. I know that he would never date me, and I will list the reasons why; 1) I am fat 2) I am fat 3) I am fat 4) I am ugly Those are the reasons that he would not date me, but should I change everything to get the opprotunity to date him? I know that if I lost weight he would date me, but is it w...

Well, I have good news to those who have been praying so hard for me. Today is a break throgh day! One majorly good thing happened today. Jessica, the best friend, went into my sisters work and she said she wanted to talk to me. My sister told her to call me, and that to her knowledge I was on the fence about hating her. When I got home my sister told me what she said and asked if I would want Jessica to call me. I said sure, and that was the end of it. At about 7:15, about the time...