I not been writing blogs on here in a long time. So much has happened, so much has changed. I got extremly happy for a long time, and then it all crashed again. BUt that is how life is. I lost Eddie, he became my best friend, we did everything together. He literally cried on my shoulder when his ex broke up with him. Then, I fell in love with him. It was wonderful, and daunting, and horrible in the end. He actually ended our friendship officially because of the fact that I loved him. He said, and I quote, "I have nothing against you You are a great girl, but our friendship is too much for me... You will be fine:) Goodbye elaina....." and that was it for a 6 year friendship. He needed more time for his girlfriend. But that is ok. THat is life. I was heart broken and still am, but it is ok. I can learn to live with it. I am hoping to get into Colorado State Univeristy in the fall. I am hoping that all goes  well.