So here I am, I am finally back to a state where I can update my blog. I have had a lot of stuff going on lately. But this blog is going to be about other stuff.
I realized that I fell in love for the first time. But my question is that can we actually love someone who does not love you in return. We were friends for a long time, but I never got over him. He was amazing. We always talked, but then he started hanging out with the wrong people, and he started doing stupid stuff. He stole my car, but that was after I decided that I needed to get over him. Noone would believe me that I was in love, because it seems that I would have more common sense than to allow myself to get hurt by his pathetic self. I knew that he was going to hurt me, but I still allowed. I know that you cannot stop the doings of the heart, and of God. But I dont understand why I couldnt resist him. I guess that it was the way that we talked, the way that we were when it was just us. We talked about everything, he told me his hopes and his dreams. While I told him somethings about me he surely did not learn everythign about me. I told him about my father, but then he quit talking to me. I think that mabye he couldnt deal with it. But there were also other things, but how do I get over stuff like this. I love him, how do you get over that. I never see him anymore, so sometimes I say that he is dead, but then I just get sadder. I dont want to loose the good times, but I do want to move on with my life. How do I do that?