i'm glad you choose life. i would miss you.
at times i've been tempted to escape into death.
life has prevailed, and i'm glad.

Thank You. I really miss you. I just wish at times that I could go back in time and stop everything from happening to my best friend. At times I feel so guilty that I can not even find the words to describe it. So for now I am going to go. I love you!
Aloha

whoa.  I'm with Jen.

Are you talking about your mother here?

Trinitie

The poem thing no, but I do not know where it comes from. Also Trinitie, do I have some news for you. We found out in court yesterday that Jessica got hitched last week. Also that her "23" year old boyfriend was really 26. My lawyer told me that when I said, " Jessica is living with her 23 year old boyfriend". She said, " No her 26 year old husband". How disguisting is that! Also, that she lied to me about another thing. I am trying to get over her friendship, because I know that it is for the best, but it is just so hard. That would be me admitting that I allowed someone else to hurt me. I swore after I moved here from North Carolina that I would not allow that to happen again. Plus she is the only person in the world besides God and Eddie that knows everything about me. What should I do?
Aloha

Um, why don't I know everything about you?

Trinitie

I think that you do, I just didn't think about it. I just dont lump into this catagory because you are my sister, not just a friend.
Aloha

Honestly, life has a lot to offer, and although bad things happen and you make wrong choices (like not protecting your friend, which she probably doesn't blame you for), life always has something to teach you. You just need to have faith that things will get better and that no matter what there are people you can count on and who love you and who want to help you with your sufferings and problems. Let them be there for you. Be thankful for people like Trinitie and Jennifer who so obviously love you. By the way, there are probably more people that would miss you than you know.

Honestly, life has a lot to offer, and although bad things happen and you make wrong choices (like not protecting your friend, which she probably doesn't blame you for), life always has something to teach you. You just need to have faith that things will get better and that no matter what there are people you can count on and who love you and who want to help you with your sufferings and problems. Let them be there for you. Be thankful for people like Trinitie and Jennifer who so obviously love you. By the way, there are probably more people that would miss you than you know.

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here are my thoughts about death. I choose life everyday.

Anonymous I know that life has a lot to offer, but sometimes I just dont see it. You can not honestly tell me that you have never not seen through the tears. So now I am going. But I know that my friend blames me for not protecting her. If she did not then why will she not even look at me. It just breaks my heart that I failed her as her friend and as a human being.
Moderate man, thank you for the comment, and I left a comment on yours. You are pretty amazing.
Aloha

Maybe your friend has a lot more going on right now, and maybe she can't see through the tears. Maybe that is why she"will not even look at you".

No she just hates me and that is because she is choosing her new husband and her psycotic mother over me. But hey blood is thicker than water right.
Aloha

I'm sorry that your friend is that way, then

Elaina,
Our family would not be happier without you, just to make sure that you are not thinking that. And, you have not caused any suffering or pain, other than normal teenage stuff. lol. I would miss you terribly, so I'm glad you choose life.
Love ya!
Augie

Augie you are silly, I know that you guys would miss me. But sometimes it seems like it would be other wise. I love you to!
Aloha