...... I hope that I get there soon
I just looked back at almost all of my blogs, and they have all been depressing and poor me for a long time. I am looking for that turn on to happy lane, it is just hard to find with all the bad stuff in my life. I always look at the negative, I always have. I think it is time for a change.
Everyone else has moved on to the next chapter in their lives, but I am still holding on to the old one. I am not ready to move on. But who can make time stand still? I have been given an offer to move to Texas with a friend, and lately I have been considering it. I am not getting along with my family, and I am tired of fighting.
My friend who hasnt talked to me in months wants to get together saturday, and I am excited. She said that she never meant to hurt me, and that she never meant to make me feel abandoned she just had alot going on at home with her husband. I get that I do, but I am very jealous of her, she is 17 and already found the love of her life.
I want to find my happiness, but I do not know where to look. I have to let go of the past. I feel like I am on the edge of the cliff of life, and it is time for me to take the plunge into the next chapter, but I am holding on for dear life to stay in the past. So I am going to try and let go, but it is hard. I am not ready for the responsibily of adulthood, I am not ready to deal with the things that I need to deal with. But I have to if I want to find happiness, so here I go.
Here I come happiness, hopefully my next blog will be happy. I will try to start finding the positive in everything. I will spread my wings and fly, even if it is just down the street a little bit, or if it is all the way to Texas. I will fly away just to prove that I can.