Why I cant deal with my sister
My older sister, August, went on a blind date today. Although me and her have not been getting along lately, we have still been telling each other things. She called the house and said, " Ginnie?" I said no and then she asked who had the baby. I told her that I did, and then she asked for our little sister Virginia. She told Virginia that she had a blind date, and that is cool, but less then fice minutes later when she walked in she just walked down to my little sister's room and talked to her. Then she left.
A few nights ago August and I had a very long discussion about stuff, and she told me that I was her best friend and that she did not know what she would do if anything ever happened to me. Well, if I am her best friend then why the hell would she not tell me that she had a date? So now I am giving up, I allowed my other best friend to hurt me for years, and now that I am out of that relationship I am not going to dive into this other one where I know that I will be hurt. Where does that make sense? I also just broke off the relationship with my friend Eddie, because ever since he asked me on a date and then denied it (because he just said it because that is what came to his mind) he has pretty much stopped calling me. He has also, been avoiding my calls.
Why would I stay in a relationship with people who hurt me so, and what is sad is that I honestly think that some do it on purpose. So now I am sitting here friendless and lifeless. So I really hope that I can find new friends at work or somewhere. I really hope that I do not bore those of you who read this and have hope for life, because I do not. I really hope that changes, but with the way things are looking right now they are not going to. Thanks for listening.